It's Chinese New Year's Eve!

Mood: Good
Music: Granado Espada - Espada Nigero
Random Note: I'm eating too much.

Phew! The week's been really rushed!~ Since the day 2009 arrived on the english calander, I've not been able to have one day of peace mentally. Work had been really taxing, and school planning is both exciting and time consuming. The last 2 weeks of my life @ home, I just want to spend the best of it with my family and friends.

Strange things have been happening in my sleep! I keep getting nightmares, including those about not being prepared enough for my overseas trip (I dreamt of an evil clown too). Perhaps I'm getting too much done with such little time...dang my bad habit of doing things so last minute!

That is why I am going to make good use of the time next week to pack up my luggage! Looking at that huge bag makes me go "omg."~

I've been wanting to sit down and compile my thoughts. It's sad that I still dun possess enough discpline in doing these things (somehow, a game of warcraft kinda feels more appropriate over typing XD).

Life is full of ups and downs. Looking back at what I've experienced on sunny home island for the past 22.5 years, emotions are mixed.

Goving overseas to pursue my carreer had always been something that I've dreamed of but never really expected to happen. As far as my memory serves me, I've always wanted to go see the world outside. Now that the option have surfaced for me, I just keep worrying so very hard on how to make this the perfect experience.

A side of me knows that not everyone gets opportunities, and that's probably why I can't set my mind to be at peace yet. Guess I'll get settled in soon, since the board is already set to go.

I've always relied a lot on my family and friends for support. Perhaps most people see me as someone who is very independent and reliable, but if you've hanged around long enough...I guess Jon is pretty much just a human. I mean, come on - I'm not handsome, not rich, not talanted, which kinda equates to not being so attractive / popular in most cases.

My Family had been able to give me the necessary lessons in life: learning to be strong and independent. I am proud to say I cook, wash, organise and do all those very "aunty" things...yea you heard me! XD My mum, my sister and my bro each had taught me how to handle situations, and I am more than just glad to forever be bound to them by relation.

My family also consists of my cousins, which I am eternally grateful for the great times we've conjured over the years! Kt, Jx and Zr...are probably going to be the 3 people I'll miss most during this trip away. They are the people who've been with me through all good and bad, and it really pains me to think of how much I won't be seeing them (we always meet up so regularly that it's become a habit to just organise impromptu stayovers). I will definitely think a lot about em...

Not to be forgotten would be my aunts, who've been there to make life better and more importantly, given me the opportunity to pursure my tertiary education abroad. Always there to lend me a helping hand, teach me new stuff, or even just to share cooking tips and a good meal with me...I'll miss them much too. They are the people whom had inculcated the idea of "one big family" in me, always reminding me that hey, there really is no place like home... =)

(...Where I can be as absurd and ridiculous as I want to be and nobody cares XD)

Having said all that, I guess there's only more room now for me to fight for what really matters to me in life! =) It does console me to know that everyone is giving me the support I need, and having the faith that I'll be able to make it...sometimes I dun really know what I've done to derserve such good from anyone, and that itself will serve as a force of moltivation to keep me moving forward and strive for excellence.

I'll love to type more, but now it's time to clean up my house for 2009's Chinese New Year Woohoo! Lot's of FOOD in the house! Gonna munch on them till they're all gone! Hehe!

Ah Jon