Music: Valkyrie Profile Lenneth – Doorway to Heaven
Mood: I’m all over the place XD
Random Note: I define cheap shit.
Here I am 2 days before school starts.
It is all so exciting and weird how my choices have lead me to such a day where I have to face what I deemed to be ‘the time of my life’ feeling all so cheap about myself.
I’m never going to be able to respect myself because of some answers that I’ll never be able to find. It’s a pretty complicated issue.
You know how many people can just move on in life when they have something good to hold onto and focus their attention on? It sucks when they assume I can do it.
Maybe sometimes I cling on tight in so much hope that they will help me out and get me moving...? I do not know, and honestly I cannot blame anyone or anything for that matter now can I?
However, I have also made a deal to seal this forever within me with respect to what I have always deemed important. Yesterday will indeed be my last time exposing my sensitive side to anyone because I’m so messed up inside, no one can ever find out and cause me harm again.
I feel that I have played the roles of some ass that have taught people lessons in life. I am that cheap freak that people can just pick up and use without having to fear of any consequences. Happens at work all the time and that was fine.
Never did I, however, expect that the closest of people will be able to have such a freaking negative impact on me.
I have to move on because I need to be responsible towards my family and friends. That however, does not mean I am able to find peace because every single moment of my life now I am struggling to seek an answer that is forever lost in time. I f.ing hate myself to the guts for the moment and always will continue to be.
I’ve never felt so disgusted at myself ever. CHEAPNESS FOR THE WIN! WOOHOOO!
Cheers,
Ah Jon
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Phone Woe (It haunts me!)
Music: Hannah Montana – Best of both worlds
Mood: Good
Random Note: I miss carrot cake so much…
It’s a beautiful morning! I am wide awake after a nice long shower~ Oh yea!
(And X is still dead in his spot on the bed. I’m kind of staring at him as I type)
So life these past few days have been pretty fine. Things are slowly falling into place, and I guess I could get used to some of the stuffs soon i.e. the travelling time, the shopping for groceries, the people and such.
I need to get into the mood to buy myself a telephone here…it is so expensive! I kept telling myself I should get one just so that I could make calls home without disconnecting, but whenever I walk into a phone shop, I just cannot bring myself to buy.
Ah the stingy side of me for myself forever lives =( I guess I will try to get it soon…
We got some weights from the mall yesterday, and I will try to look better before I return to SG XD That is of course, if x is kind enough to teach me how to use them (he doesn’t seem to be able to understand the fact that I have never done any form of sports before).
On the entertainment side, I have been introduced to a series called Scrubs. It is quite a fun show to watch! As usual, my definition of ‘fun’ = really Ghay stuff e.g. lamer jokes, good acting. You guys should catch it too if you haven’t.
X was reading through his enrollment stuff yesterday night. His case seems to be a little more complicated than others, because there seem to be some restrictions on his timetables if he wanted to change course.
I realized quickly that I was going into my “get the job done” mode. For some reason, I seem to want to jump into situations and find the fastest solution for them. Sometimes, I do not realize how much people need to learn things on their own, and how some of these lessons in life have a certain importance to them.
It was like a sudden realization, the kind that made me feel good to keep myself quiet for the moment.
I guess it is okay to see people I care about getting stressed sometimes. My role still stands (as always being there whenever they need me), and I could give myself some space to do and think about things I wanted to do for myself.
Oh well! I will be leaving the house soon to go apply for the lease on this apartment. Will make breakfast first then wake my housemate. Catch you guys soon!
Ah Jon
(P.S. I can’t get through to my cousins by phone T.T no one picked up their phones when I gave them calls XD)
Mood: Good
Random Note: I miss carrot cake so much…
It’s a beautiful morning! I am wide awake after a nice long shower~ Oh yea!
(And X is still dead in his spot on the bed. I’m kind of staring at him as I type)
So life these past few days have been pretty fine. Things are slowly falling into place, and I guess I could get used to some of the stuffs soon i.e. the travelling time, the shopping for groceries, the people and such.
I need to get into the mood to buy myself a telephone here…it is so expensive! I kept telling myself I should get one just so that I could make calls home without disconnecting, but whenever I walk into a phone shop, I just cannot bring myself to buy.
Ah the stingy side of me for myself forever lives =( I guess I will try to get it soon…
We got some weights from the mall yesterday, and I will try to look better before I return to SG XD That is of course, if x is kind enough to teach me how to use them (he doesn’t seem to be able to understand the fact that I have never done any form of sports before).
On the entertainment side, I have been introduced to a series called Scrubs. It is quite a fun show to watch! As usual, my definition of ‘fun’ = really Ghay stuff e.g. lamer jokes, good acting. You guys should catch it too if you haven’t.
X was reading through his enrollment stuff yesterday night. His case seems to be a little more complicated than others, because there seem to be some restrictions on his timetables if he wanted to change course.
I realized quickly that I was going into my “get the job done” mode. For some reason, I seem to want to jump into situations and find the fastest solution for them. Sometimes, I do not realize how much people need to learn things on their own, and how some of these lessons in life have a certain importance to them.
It was like a sudden realization, the kind that made me feel good to keep myself quiet for the moment.
I guess it is okay to see people I care about getting stressed sometimes. My role still stands (as always being there whenever they need me), and I could give myself some space to do and think about things I wanted to do for myself.
Oh well! I will be leaving the house soon to go apply for the lease on this apartment. Will make breakfast first then wake my housemate. Catch you guys soon!
Ah Jon
(P.S. I can’t get through to my cousins by phone T.T no one picked up their phones when I gave them calls XD)
Rough patch…
GONE!
Music: Hannah Montana – Best of both worlds
Mood: Great!
Random Note: I’m good to go.
Yesterday, I had a rough patch thinking about stuffs.
Today, I’m glad to say I’m ready to go and face the challenges ahead of me! Guess I’ve finally learned to move on from that huge ‘burden’ that I was carrying about a week ago.
X and I have decided that we will be taking this apartment for a while since it is quite a cozy (no the weather is still suckys! Quite cold that is.) Yup! So let’s now hope that we can get a decent lease from the owners soon~ I’ll keep you all posted on the residential address soon.
WE STILL HAVE NO INTERNET!!! T.T
(X thinks that’s what’s driving us really mad in the house XD)
I’ll be leaving in about 50 minutes to go enroll for my course! Omg omg omg! Am darn excited…
Let’s hope that I’ll be able to meet some good people today!
Ah Jon
Music: Hannah Montana – Best of both worlds
Mood: Great!
Random Note: I’m good to go.
Yesterday, I had a rough patch thinking about stuffs.
Today, I’m glad to say I’m ready to go and face the challenges ahead of me! Guess I’ve finally learned to move on from that huge ‘burden’ that I was carrying about a week ago.
X and I have decided that we will be taking this apartment for a while since it is quite a cozy (no the weather is still suckys! Quite cold that is.) Yup! So let’s now hope that we can get a decent lease from the owners soon~ I’ll keep you all posted on the residential address soon.
WE STILL HAVE NO INTERNET!!! T.T
(X thinks that’s what’s driving us really mad in the house XD)
I’ll be leaving in about 50 minutes to go enroll for my course! Omg omg omg! Am darn excited…
Let’s hope that I’ll be able to meet some good people today!
Ah Jon
Quiet morning
Music: Hannah Montana – This is the life
Mood: Pensive
Random Note: I need a personal camera
Here I am wide awake on my 6th day in Sydney while my housemate is still dead as a fly. Hence, I thought why not make myself an entry =)
Last night I finally got my pre-paid SIM cards to work and made calls back to SG. It sure felt good to be able to talk to people you love and care about.
Just want to note that life is really quite a ride now, and I’m still learning to cope with certain issues i.e. how I’m feeling, how to live with a best friend, how to cope with all the uncertainty. I’ll be uploading photos as soon as I get a decent internet connection.
Take care everyone! You all are being missed and you know it XD
Ah Jon
Mood: Pensive
Random Note: I need a personal camera
Here I am wide awake on my 6th day in Sydney while my housemate is still dead as a fly. Hence, I thought why not make myself an entry =)
Last night I finally got my pre-paid SIM cards to work and made calls back to SG. It sure felt good to be able to talk to people you love and care about.
Just want to note that life is really quite a ride now, and I’m still learning to cope with certain issues i.e. how I’m feeling, how to live with a best friend, how to cope with all the uncertainty. I’ll be uploading photos as soon as I get a decent internet connection.
Take care everyone! You all are being missed and you know it XD
Ah Jon
Sunday, February 15, 2009
My life needs adjustment
Music: Hannah Montana – Just Like You
Mood: Sad
Random Note: This apartment has lots of sirens at night
Sometimes I really don’t know what to do. I feel that I am being overly nice because people tell me that I am, but I feel awful when I do not get to do what I want to even though I have the ability to.
Today X showed me a j-drama called ‘Proposal’. We managed to catch ½ of the episodes and it’s a pretty romantic show! XD X thinks of it as the perfect love drama for guys because well…maybe he feels for the lead in the show (he says it’s rare that shows have male leads).
The show was romantic and all. There were emotions and situations that I, for someone who’s never been in a relationship, was able to feel for.
I quickly realize that hey, though I never made it to any relationship with any other person, I have my friends. And all this while I’ve been so busy trying to create the perfect situations with people; I’ve so called ‘exceeded expectations’. Sure if any of my closer friends were to read this, they would be able to recall moments when it feels more of ‘romance’ instead of the norm friendship that should have been. All I really wanted was to make people happy (yes, and as my friend would have told me again, they never asked for all these to be done).
I believe in love. I really do. It is the reason why I am able to respect couples as they are whenever I meet any because I feel that “this could be the relationship that would bring them happiness! “
And above all this, I cannot bring myself to love someone when I’m not able to even be good enough as a friend. X told me many things that made me realize what an annoyance I had been for the past 8 years of my life. Many of you probably have felt that there were things that I shouldn’t have been too meddlesome with, and things that I should not butt my head into i.e. other people’s families, other people’s affairs, other people’s personal lives…
Seriously, when I do something it is probably because I wanted to. My principles still stand as of now: if I want to do anything, I will do it to the best of my abilities; otherwise you can forget about me putting any effort into it. For work, for relationships…it’s all the same! I feel that time is limited for my life, and that this is a straight journey down with no turn backs (we can revisit moments, but that does not mean we can truly re-live them).
I’ve managed to put my solid plans for school aside and not complicate them with my emotions. However, I believe I will not be recovering anytime soon from all these ‘realizations’. If as per my friend’s logic goes: It is not strange that no one had ever liked me, I have been overly helpful and positive about other people’s lives, and I have not been anything that I’ve really thought myself to be.
The irony…I always felt I was living the life I wanted, but without realizing how much of other people’s dreams I am destroying…
Ah Jon
Mood: Sad
Random Note: This apartment has lots of sirens at night
Sometimes I really don’t know what to do. I feel that I am being overly nice because people tell me that I am, but I feel awful when I do not get to do what I want to even though I have the ability to.
Today X showed me a j-drama called ‘Proposal’. We managed to catch ½ of the episodes and it’s a pretty romantic show! XD X thinks of it as the perfect love drama for guys because well…maybe he feels for the lead in the show (he says it’s rare that shows have male leads).
The show was romantic and all. There were emotions and situations that I, for someone who’s never been in a relationship, was able to feel for.
I quickly realize that hey, though I never made it to any relationship with any other person, I have my friends. And all this while I’ve been so busy trying to create the perfect situations with people; I’ve so called ‘exceeded expectations’. Sure if any of my closer friends were to read this, they would be able to recall moments when it feels more of ‘romance’ instead of the norm friendship that should have been. All I really wanted was to make people happy (yes, and as my friend would have told me again, they never asked for all these to be done).
I believe in love. I really do. It is the reason why I am able to respect couples as they are whenever I meet any because I feel that “this could be the relationship that would bring them happiness! “
And above all this, I cannot bring myself to love someone when I’m not able to even be good enough as a friend. X told me many things that made me realize what an annoyance I had been for the past 8 years of my life. Many of you probably have felt that there were things that I shouldn’t have been too meddlesome with, and things that I should not butt my head into i.e. other people’s families, other people’s affairs, other people’s personal lives…
Seriously, when I do something it is probably because I wanted to. My principles still stand as of now: if I want to do anything, I will do it to the best of my abilities; otherwise you can forget about me putting any effort into it. For work, for relationships…it’s all the same! I feel that time is limited for my life, and that this is a straight journey down with no turn backs (we can revisit moments, but that does not mean we can truly re-live them).
I’ve managed to put my solid plans for school aside and not complicate them with my emotions. However, I believe I will not be recovering anytime soon from all these ‘realizations’. If as per my friend’s logic goes: It is not strange that no one had ever liked me, I have been overly helpful and positive about other people’s lives, and I have not been anything that I’ve really thought myself to be.
The irony…I always felt I was living the life I wanted, but without realizing how much of other people’s dreams I am destroying…
Ah Jon
I’m here in Sydney!
Music: Hannah Montana – The Other Side Of Me
Mood: Excited!
Random Note: It really hurts!
I’m finally here! In Sydney, land for the future of my education! :D Okok, let’s take this slowly and I shall try my very best to recall every bit of it thus far!
(Btw, it’s been 2 days and this is my very first post in foreign land XD)
It was the day to go, 10 Feb 2009. I still had a list of things I wanted to do, which went something like this:
- Get hair trimmed
- Get pants altered
- Get nail cutter
- Get stationary
- Get battery calculator
(Yes, I am still such a last min guy. Please let the future change this!)
Went around early in the morning and was not able to fulfill anything (cuz all the shops were not opened)! Can still remember how nervous I was when I couldn’t get anything done. Nonetheless, I had to meet my friends for a meal at Sushi Tei Holland. Thanks Jeremy, for the wonderful meal, and for accompanying me to finish up my tasks after that.
So everything happened really quickly. Before I was even packed, I needed to leave home (yes, and poor Jeremy had to wait for me for about 30 mins because I was so not ready).
Guess I panicked and didn’t know what to do~ I wanted so much to bring along a special pendent that my best pal gave me so that I could wear it along to her wedding…dang! I hate myself for not being able to find it in time (I’m really sorry about it)…
Me rushed down to clement central to buy the last bit of re-fills that X asked for before rushing down to my cousins @ T3, Changi Airport with Jeremy. Man…on the way there, I just didn’t know what I was experiencing; mind was in a fluster, was just typing away my farewell sms-es and trying my best to maintain my cool. My mind was just bursting with emotions…
I met up with my cousins at the airport for a last meal in SG. We had Popeye’s and my cousins each gave me something to bring along for this trip: A blue jacket (which proved to be very useful because OMG IT IS SO COLD HERE IN SYDNEY) from Jx, a pen from KT & Irene which makes my handwriting look uber l33t (XDXDXD), and a lip balm from Zr which smells really funky. Above all, my cousins gave me an organizer for me to bring along, which was the dearest gift of all because inside carried the efforts and memories of what mattered to me all my life: My family. I really love it and I intend to fill up the book with more of what is to come~ Thanks Cousys!!!
Everyone must continue to work hard, and we will be seeing each other before we even know it =)
My cousins Keith and Yong Ann came first to the airport, followed by Aunt Angela & Uncle David, Aunt Alison & family, Aunt Lang Yi, Mum and finally Bro & Sister + Grandparents. Everyone came to send me off and…as much as I really felt dreadful inside, I know that this is it. It was just time for me to go.
(Oh yea, there was a little hiccup at the airport when we wanted to check in our luggage. Just remember that when you visit Australia, do not forget that your luggage cannot exceed 32.5 Kg in weight or else you can’t go in.)
Inside my head, I was feeling so fantastic and horrible at the same time: I know that when I made the decision to go overseas months ago, I had to leave behind everything that mattered to me. This means no mum, no sis, no bro + no cousins + no aunties + no comforts of home. Yes I was able to say this is what I want, for a better future, for the better of all that mattered to me. That makes me feel awesome because I’m going to fight for what I want.
On the other hand, I know that I had done a very selfish thing just by leaving everyone behind. True, it may appear that everyone had given me their blessings and aids, but deep down inside, I know that there are some people whom can’t bear to see me go. I feel terrible at the same time. And who knows what awaits me in this road ahead…ultimately, I’m experiencing the extremes of both sides.
The plane ride was kinda bad! Though I did get to ride on the really really HUGE A380 with great services and food (I LOVE BE-JEWELED!), there was too much turbulence. Couldn’t catch any rest at all because the plane was just jerking all the way through. Urggh…But I’ll definitely still want to book my return flight on an A380 again! It’s HUGEEEEE XD
This is my first time taking Singapore Airlines. All by myself without supervision too XD
The mind still re-calls the moments before take-off, the flight and the landing…I’ve arrived at my destination. Man, the feelings are just…
The most amazing thing happened when we landed: My mobile phone just died on me. I couldn’t get it to start and there was no way I could contact Aunt Jenny / uncle Leong. We were stuck for a little while until Uncle Leong spotted us out of the blue! Thank goodness…XD I wasn’t really panicking, but just really annoyed that the phone had to go in such an un-cool manner!
We went down to our apartment and oh wow…it’s a pretty huge place! I liked it a lot if you asked me. No qualms about it! There were 2 rooms, a toilet, a hall and…A KITCHEN! I mean how awesome is that~
(Oh yeah, the next time anyone takes any flights, just try to grab some rest after landing.)
After leaving our luggage back at the apartment, Uncle Leong and Aunty Jenny brought us out to eat at a nearby place. X and I also set up our bank accounts upon arrival @ Westpac bank.
We made our way down to the university on the second day with help from one of Uncle Leong’s friend. I just have to say, I LOVE THE UNIVERSITY CAMPUS! I mean, apart from the awesomeness appearance wise, I saw the future that as before me. Too bad I dun have my personal camera...otherwise I would have taken more photos for safekeeping.
We did some grocery shopping later on in that evening and bought some food and necessities. My little home for the next few weeks =)
I miss my cousins particularly much. I miss my mum, sister, bro and Aunty Angela very much.
And here I am now, on the 13th of February 2009 at 3.07 am. Am feeling the loneliness, and still thinking about the possibilities of awesome times ahead.
Ah Jon
Mood: Excited!
Random Note: It really hurts!
I’m finally here! In Sydney, land for the future of my education! :D Okok, let’s take this slowly and I shall try my very best to recall every bit of it thus far!
(Btw, it’s been 2 days and this is my very first post in foreign land XD)
It was the day to go, 10 Feb 2009. I still had a list of things I wanted to do, which went something like this:
- Get hair trimmed
- Get pants altered
- Get nail cutter
- Get stationary
- Get battery calculator
(Yes, I am still such a last min guy. Please let the future change this!)
Went around early in the morning and was not able to fulfill anything (cuz all the shops were not opened)! Can still remember how nervous I was when I couldn’t get anything done. Nonetheless, I had to meet my friends for a meal at Sushi Tei Holland. Thanks Jeremy, for the wonderful meal, and for accompanying me to finish up my tasks after that.
So everything happened really quickly. Before I was even packed, I needed to leave home (yes, and poor Jeremy had to wait for me for about 30 mins because I was so not ready).
Guess I panicked and didn’t know what to do~ I wanted so much to bring along a special pendent that my best pal gave me so that I could wear it along to her wedding…dang! I hate myself for not being able to find it in time (I’m really sorry about it)…
Me rushed down to clement central to buy the last bit of re-fills that X asked for before rushing down to my cousins @ T3, Changi Airport with Jeremy. Man…on the way there, I just didn’t know what I was experiencing; mind was in a fluster, was just typing away my farewell sms-es and trying my best to maintain my cool. My mind was just bursting with emotions…
I met up with my cousins at the airport for a last meal in SG. We had Popeye’s and my cousins each gave me something to bring along for this trip: A blue jacket (which proved to be very useful because OMG IT IS SO COLD HERE IN SYDNEY) from Jx, a pen from KT & Irene which makes my handwriting look uber l33t (XDXDXD), and a lip balm from Zr which smells really funky. Above all, my cousins gave me an organizer for me to bring along, which was the dearest gift of all because inside carried the efforts and memories of what mattered to me all my life: My family. I really love it and I intend to fill up the book with more of what is to come~ Thanks Cousys!!!
Everyone must continue to work hard, and we will be seeing each other before we even know it =)
My cousins Keith and Yong Ann came first to the airport, followed by Aunt Angela & Uncle David, Aunt Alison & family, Aunt Lang Yi, Mum and finally Bro & Sister + Grandparents. Everyone came to send me off and…as much as I really felt dreadful inside, I know that this is it. It was just time for me to go.
(Oh yea, there was a little hiccup at the airport when we wanted to check in our luggage. Just remember that when you visit Australia, do not forget that your luggage cannot exceed 32.5 Kg in weight or else you can’t go in.)
Inside my head, I was feeling so fantastic and horrible at the same time: I know that when I made the decision to go overseas months ago, I had to leave behind everything that mattered to me. This means no mum, no sis, no bro + no cousins + no aunties + no comforts of home. Yes I was able to say this is what I want, for a better future, for the better of all that mattered to me. That makes me feel awesome because I’m going to fight for what I want.
On the other hand, I know that I had done a very selfish thing just by leaving everyone behind. True, it may appear that everyone had given me their blessings and aids, but deep down inside, I know that there are some people whom can’t bear to see me go. I feel terrible at the same time. And who knows what awaits me in this road ahead…ultimately, I’m experiencing the extremes of both sides.
The plane ride was kinda bad! Though I did get to ride on the really really HUGE A380 with great services and food (I LOVE BE-JEWELED!), there was too much turbulence. Couldn’t catch any rest at all because the plane was just jerking all the way through. Urggh…But I’ll definitely still want to book my return flight on an A380 again! It’s HUGEEEEE XD
This is my first time taking Singapore Airlines. All by myself without supervision too XD
The mind still re-calls the moments before take-off, the flight and the landing…I’ve arrived at my destination. Man, the feelings are just…
The most amazing thing happened when we landed: My mobile phone just died on me. I couldn’t get it to start and there was no way I could contact Aunt Jenny / uncle Leong. We were stuck for a little while until Uncle Leong spotted us out of the blue! Thank goodness…XD I wasn’t really panicking, but just really annoyed that the phone had to go in such an un-cool manner!
We went down to our apartment and oh wow…it’s a pretty huge place! I liked it a lot if you asked me. No qualms about it! There were 2 rooms, a toilet, a hall and…A KITCHEN! I mean how awesome is that~
(Oh yeah, the next time anyone takes any flights, just try to grab some rest after landing.)
After leaving our luggage back at the apartment, Uncle Leong and Aunty Jenny brought us out to eat at a nearby place. X and I also set up our bank accounts upon arrival @ Westpac bank.
We made our way down to the university on the second day with help from one of Uncle Leong’s friend. I just have to say, I LOVE THE UNIVERSITY CAMPUS! I mean, apart from the awesomeness appearance wise, I saw the future that as before me. Too bad I dun have my personal camera...otherwise I would have taken more photos for safekeeping.
We did some grocery shopping later on in that evening and bought some food and necessities. My little home for the next few weeks =)
I miss my cousins particularly much. I miss my mum, sister, bro and Aunty Angela very much.
And here I am now, on the 13th of February 2009 at 3.07 am. Am feeling the loneliness, and still thinking about the possibilities of awesome times ahead.
Ah Jon
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Lunch With My Aunt Angela
Music: Lilo & Stich - He Mele No Lilo
Mood: Okay
Random Note: Confusion is a terrible thing.
Had an eventful 3 days since my last post =)
It will be less than a hand's worth of fingers before my best friend and I set out for the next chapter of our individual lives. I can say I'm extremely excited, as well as nervous about it.
I met my aunt and her boss uncle David for lunch yesterday. Uncle David brought us to go eat dim sum at vivo city's Hei She Hui (Bosses). I like that place! It serves pretty nice food, and the portions are not miserable =) The meal was meant to be as a farewell gift to me, and I'm really really thankful to have uncle David and his advice throughout my planning for this trip. He even gave me a small token of appreciation, which I will be putting good use to for my overseas trip.
Haha...He is an understanding man. Initially when I first met him, I found out that he is a pretty talkative person. He would offer lots of advice, and together with that tiny details and personal aid. And after meeting him for a few times, I've grown to respect him as a kind and helpful person. He seems to be able to understand how I felt and about the stress that is omni-present inside me now.
Got to go out for a meal with my my friends in a while, have to go get ready. Catch ya all later!
Ah Jon
Mood: Okay
Random Note: Confusion is a terrible thing.
Had an eventful 3 days since my last post =)
It will be less than a hand's worth of fingers before my best friend and I set out for the next chapter of our individual lives. I can say I'm extremely excited, as well as nervous about it.
I met my aunt and her boss uncle David for lunch yesterday. Uncle David brought us to go eat dim sum at vivo city's Hei She Hui (Bosses). I like that place! It serves pretty nice food, and the portions are not miserable =) The meal was meant to be as a farewell gift to me, and I'm really really thankful to have uncle David and his advice throughout my planning for this trip. He even gave me a small token of appreciation, which I will be putting good use to for my overseas trip.
Haha...He is an understanding man. Initially when I first met him, I found out that he is a pretty talkative person. He would offer lots of advice, and together with that tiny details and personal aid. And after meeting him for a few times, I've grown to respect him as a kind and helpful person. He seems to be able to understand how I felt and about the stress that is omni-present inside me now.
Got to go out for a meal with my my friends in a while, have to go get ready. Catch ya all later!
Ah Jon
Monday, February 2, 2009
Dang! Xing Nian Kuai Le!
Mood: At peace, Glad
Music: Hannah Montana - Life's What You Make It
Random Note: MY VOICE!!! T.T
Nuuuuuu! I lost my voice!
(Remember when I said I was going to munnch on goodies till they are all gone...? XD)
This is what too much new year goodies can do to you! And a random afternoon nap.
"Oh you are going to miss all these when you go there" says everyone.
Haha! Well, this CNY's been all about food! Renuion dinners and visiting of relatives CAN make you a very happy man.
So, like any other new year, I did my regular visiting to my grandma's and aunt's. It was awesome to see everyone, and of course this time everybody asked me about my study trip to Sydney! It was all "oh I'm leaving on the 10th" and "I'll be doing a degree in Finance". Am pretty much repeating myself, so after a the 7th or 8th person asks you in the same home, it kinda became a little bit irritating lolx!
I guess I can't really get too irritated telling other people about what is about to be the most exciting chapter of my life yet now, can I? =)
So sides my family (cousins and all inclusive), I will be definitely be missing the food here so very very very much...T.T Better get myself into my kitchen again this week to get myself in the mood for lots of self-catered meals! ^^
My work had ended at Prudential on 30/01/09. My colleagues got me a backpack and a watch =) I do feel that it was really kind of them, since I was afterall just another temp boy XD I am gonna be bringing both of em with me to Australia, together with all the other experience I've gained! Now that's a concluded 6 months of my life after ORD (oh wow, sure felt like ages ago)!
Note to self: I will continue to be the best of what I can be, anywhere I go! Thanks Karen and the claims department for teaching me so very much~
We celerbrated zr's 21st birthday over a series of 3 days (30th - 1st)! First nite was spent at our aunt's place with LOTS of great food! Our aunts cooked and prepared for her, and we all just ate to our bellys' content! Her second day was held at aloha changi function room, where she did all her celerbrations with friends and more friends (think it was like 40 odd people)! We did an over-night at her place after that, stretching the celerbration till the 3rd day (though she didn't wake up the 3rd day's morning to have brunch with us)!
And I will never let kt and jx order food without me again! Eat until almost burst on the sides! O.O~
(We had chicken rice for 3, chee Cheong Fun, Fried Toufu, Fried Shrip dumplings, Har Kow, Fried Kway Teow, Fried Hokkien Mee -- Kt, Jx, X and myself to devour it all!)
Spent the nite visiting sonia's yesterday. Her dad whipped up some really awesome stuff and we just ate ate and ATE (again)! It was awesome! Apart from that, we did Pirates 2 and 3, Doctor Horrible and lots of black jack~ XD
I realised at so many points in my post I wasn't able to provide any pictures! Got to try and get my hands on photos and a camera as soon as I can~
With regards to my previous post, I guess it will have to wait for itself to be resolved. There are things I need to say, things I must do, and there's not really much point for me to go make a whole lot of drama out of it. For now, I must constantly be reminded that School and Family is my life.
Gonna go pack up more of my stuffs into the luggage. Catch up again soon!
Ah Jon
Music: Hannah Montana - Life's What You Make It
Random Note: MY VOICE!!! T.T
Nuuuuuu! I lost my voice!
(Remember when I said I was going to munnch on goodies till they are all gone...? XD)
This is what too much new year goodies can do to you! And a random afternoon nap.
"Oh you are going to miss all these when you go there" says everyone.
Haha! Well, this CNY's been all about food! Renuion dinners and visiting of relatives CAN make you a very happy man.
So, like any other new year, I did my regular visiting to my grandma's and aunt's. It was awesome to see everyone, and of course this time everybody asked me about my study trip to Sydney! It was all "oh I'm leaving on the 10th" and "I'll be doing a degree in Finance". Am pretty much repeating myself, so after a the 7th or 8th person asks you in the same home, it kinda became a little bit irritating lolx!
I guess I can't really get too irritated telling other people about what is about to be the most exciting chapter of my life yet now, can I? =)
So sides my family (cousins and all inclusive), I will be definitely be missing the food here so very very very much...T.T Better get myself into my kitchen again this week to get myself in the mood for lots of self-catered meals! ^^
My work had ended at Prudential on 30/01/09. My colleagues got me a backpack and a watch =) I do feel that it was really kind of them, since I was afterall just another temp boy XD I am gonna be bringing both of em with me to Australia, together with all the other experience I've gained! Now that's a concluded 6 months of my life after ORD (oh wow, sure felt like ages ago)!
Note to self: I will continue to be the best of what I can be, anywhere I go! Thanks Karen and the claims department for teaching me so very much~
We celerbrated zr's 21st birthday over a series of 3 days (30th - 1st)! First nite was spent at our aunt's place with LOTS of great food! Our aunts cooked and prepared for her, and we all just ate to our bellys' content! Her second day was held at aloha changi function room, where she did all her celerbrations with friends and more friends (think it was like 40 odd people)! We did an over-night at her place after that, stretching the celerbration till the 3rd day (though she didn't wake up the 3rd day's morning to have brunch with us)!
And I will never let kt and jx order food without me again! Eat until almost burst on the sides! O.O~
(We had chicken rice for 3, chee Cheong Fun, Fried Toufu, Fried Shrip dumplings, Har Kow, Fried Kway Teow, Fried Hokkien Mee -- Kt, Jx, X and myself to devour it all!)
Spent the nite visiting sonia's yesterday. Her dad whipped up some really awesome stuff and we just ate ate and ATE (again)! It was awesome! Apart from that, we did Pirates 2 and 3, Doctor Horrible and lots of black jack~ XD
I realised at so many points in my post I wasn't able to provide any pictures! Got to try and get my hands on photos and a camera as soon as I can~
With regards to my previous post, I guess it will have to wait for itself to be resolved. There are things I need to say, things I must do, and there's not really much point for me to go make a whole lot of drama out of it. For now, I must constantly be reminded that School and Family is my life.
Gonna go pack up more of my stuffs into the luggage. Catch up again soon!
Ah Jon
(Seems) The World's Falling Apart...
Mood: Seriously Depressed
Music: Fans of my room's computer, Cars out of my window
Random Note: Am I really unattractive?
I still haven't given anyone access to this diary of mine. I feel somehow, that once I've done that, I would lose a space that I'm comfortable with.
I'm feeling so bad, I think it's because I'm stressed out over packing for my trip.
I have much to blog about my CNY, but I want to go catch a nap first...can't think straight at all.
Somehow, I feel very alone in this walk of life now. I wanted so badly to leave the country with my best friend...and now, I'm just not able to make the best of it at all. I'm so tense I keep getting these heart sinking feeling (and I know very well that I only get those when I'm feeling rock bottom depressed). It's almost like I'm having a heart attack, but the kind that can't temporarily black out my senses because it's nothing really serious.
Am I just worrying too much?
This really feels like a solo jog down a cemetary; not because I want it, but because I ain't getting any affirmation at all from my to-be-housemate. I dun even know if I'm wanted...that's how I honestly feel. Best part about this is I can't even express myself anymore because this is just all so pointless. It's like an aeroplane can hit me now and I will not care.
I'm getting giddy, gonna sign off.
Ah Jon
Music: Fans of my room's computer, Cars out of my window
Random Note: Am I really unattractive?
I still haven't given anyone access to this diary of mine. I feel somehow, that once I've done that, I would lose a space that I'm comfortable with.
I'm feeling so bad, I think it's because I'm stressed out over packing for my trip.
I have much to blog about my CNY, but I want to go catch a nap first...can't think straight at all.
Somehow, I feel very alone in this walk of life now. I wanted so badly to leave the country with my best friend...and now, I'm just not able to make the best of it at all. I'm so tense I keep getting these heart sinking feeling (and I know very well that I only get those when I'm feeling rock bottom depressed). It's almost like I'm having a heart attack, but the kind that can't temporarily black out my senses because it's nothing really serious.
Am I just worrying too much?
This really feels like a solo jog down a cemetary; not because I want it, but because I ain't getting any affirmation at all from my to-be-housemate. I dun even know if I'm wanted...that's how I honestly feel. Best part about this is I can't even express myself anymore because this is just all so pointless. It's like an aeroplane can hit me now and I will not care.
I'm getting giddy, gonna sign off.
Ah Jon
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