(Seems) The World's Falling Apart...

Mood: Seriously Depressed
Music: Fans of my room's computer, Cars out of my window
Random Note: Am I really unattractive?

I still haven't given anyone access to this diary of mine. I feel somehow, that once I've done that, I would lose a space that I'm comfortable with.

I'm feeling so bad, I think it's because I'm stressed out over packing for my trip.

I have much to blog about my CNY, but I want to go catch a nap first...can't think straight at all.

Somehow, I feel very alone in this walk of life now. I wanted so badly to leave the country with my best friend...and now, I'm just not able to make the best of it at all. I'm so tense I keep getting these heart sinking feeling (and I know very well that I only get those when I'm feeling rock bottom depressed). It's almost like I'm having a heart attack, but the kind that can't temporarily black out my senses because it's nothing really serious.

Am I just worrying too much?

This really feels like a solo jog down a cemetary; not because I want it, but because I ain't getting any affirmation at all from my to-be-housemate. I dun even know if I'm wanted...that's how I honestly feel. Best part about this is I can't even express myself anymore because this is just all so pointless. It's like an aeroplane can hit me now and I will not care.

I'm getting giddy, gonna sign off.

Ah Jon