What A Nightmare~

Music: Hannah Montana - Best of Both Worlds
Mood: Kinda mixture of shocked and frightened
Random Note: I'm feeling the love =)

I just woke up in a jump and it was so scary! I had to come to the computer to type this down like almost immediately, possibly one of the most...interesting nightmares I've ever got.

I dreamed that I was part of this group of 30 elite spies with super natural abilities. And it was all like, so real! We busted leet crimes together in small groups and we were happy agents.

Then my partner was about to get married and I was assigned to get some mission done (I can't remember the exact specifics). 1/2 way along my mission, I was informed by another agent that I trust that there was this message that needed to be delieved to my partner.

So, I set out for the hunt to find my partner, whom I soon realised was nowhere to be found. I got worried and made that my mission (it was like a game + movie kind of thing, where I can choose my paths). Wow...I was climbing carparks, playing spy and doing all those really secret mission stuffs! Almost died a few times, but managed to escape XD I still remember i could jump really high in this nightmare, so fun lah!

The reason it was considered a nightmare was because I could not find my partner. Though it was just an illusion, I felt the anxious! And there seems to be this bond that we supposedly share as secret agents (almost as though we were really friends). The vividness of the feeling still lingers on as I type this (creepy!).

Then I realised that my partner was going to miss his wedding if I do not find him soom. I panicked and started to get really scared, as though I knew I was never going to find him. I contacted the agents again and nobody wanted to help me...as though I was really alone now for the rest of the game. It was really so real, it was not funny anymore.

Eventually I never got to find my partner...and I lost in this so called "scene".

Woke up feeling so confused! The reason why this nightmare was so scary was because I felt like panic, fear, betrayal and loneliness all together in that 7 hours of sleep. Usually I would not be able to remember the feelings involved, except for the rush of excitement and fun that involves me doing really ridiculous things. This was definitely not any ordinary adventure dream...XD

Well, I begun thinking about why it should affect me on any note (since my life is really set in a pretty good place now). I realised that the emotions felt were genuinely things that I was afraid of in real life. The fear of losing loved ones, not being able to help them, making wrong decisions that could destroy them indirectly, being alone...

It sure does not help when a nightmare becomes almost too vivid for comfort! XD Well...I'll go calm myself down now for a while, get back in the mood and do some work before headed off to school.

I will update again soon about events happening around here soon! So till then, hope everyone is doing awesome! =)

Ah Jon