Getting Ready For Semester (Again)

Music: Wang Lee Hom - Wo Men De Ge
Mood: Indifferent
Random Note: Australian Mangoes Are Sweet =)

Starting tomorrow, I will be back @ Uni to continue my pursuit for a degree in accounting!

Honestly, I am not really sure how I'm feeling. It feels just like yesterday that I've gone back to SG and here I am thinking of what to do already for my first semester 2010.

Seems like the past 3 months had been very eventful; Part of me feels that I have left a lot of things unsolved back at home. Anyone remotely close to me would have more or less understood my predicaments within my family and amongst my friends.

I suddenly feel like making a list of things I wished I had been able to provide a better solution to:
- My friends and their bitter state of unhappiness between one another
- Study advice to people whom may need it
- An agreement for an ongoing divorce

Then again, there's the list of things which I am grateful for being able to accomplish:
- Finally getting that present I wanted to give someone for a while already
- Being able to spend quality time with my cousins
- Having the opportunity to be a good son/nephew/grandson/godson and spend time with my family

I feel better already just typing out that last bit of the previous paragraph.

Maybe I'm just afraid of what this semester might hold for me. I know the subjects' difficulty level will be exponentially higher (got this feeling when I recieved my 3 day timetable and realised the modules I've signed up for are o.O). And I have a problem with telling people I have a problem...let alone just wanting to be honest and say what is really on my mind.

"Too used to standing in the front of the line and just fiending off any situation without looking back for any support?"

Anyhows, the apartment is really dusty! I got back and the first thing I wanted to do was to vacuum the place. Have a friend over here for a while now, because he apparently has issues with his 'designated' living home.

Sometimes I think I am too quarrelsome. Take this friend here for example: I heard of his problems and the first thing I thought of was to try help him claw back what he should be getting out of the deal. This is done without much consideration for the actual parties involved in the contract i.e. my friend and his other friend who apparently had failed to provide the lodging.

I do not know where I gather the courage to be so apprehensive about things around me from time to time. I realised that is also probably the reason why I am often trapped in my own world of self-illusioned misery. Maybe I need to learn how to be less harsh to others...?

Regardless of the circumstances, I know for sure I cannot have him around too long. We won't get along in the same house. Let's just say I know what I want for myself in this aspect xD I'll make the necessary steps if the situation calls for it.

I've uploaded ALL my SG photos onto facebook. I know many people have been wondering where they are. Well, I just need a little more time to sort them into relative folders.

Am going to try and leave things the way they are right now because I dun think I am in a good mental state to handle anything too serious. Shall try and focus a little more as the day progresses, hopefully things will be better!

Ah Jon