Bad Post (Previously)

Music: Tokyo Towers OST - Tsubomi
Mood: Still quiet
Random Note: I must be so bored to do 2 updates in 1 day! XD

Well, I have reserved my energies for tomorrow and sunday to be for more serious stuff. Hence, I figured that I have to do some 'closure' tonite with regards to my 'disconnection'.

(No I will not be short-changing my friends of good posts that I promised ^^ I will do them over the weekend with some photos)

I consumed a large amount of time (like a whole 24 hours in total) completing 2 series of shows this week.

First was Chuck, a story about a man whom had all the government secrets stuck inside his head and he was protected by 2 bodyguards. The show eventually developed into Chuck falling in love with 1 of his security guys called Sarah...and if you want to know more go watch the show! ;) It's pretty cliche, but there are very awesome elements in the show.

I mean by now most of my friends probably know what I look for in shows. I will give Kt and X the awards for providing me with shows that I like =)

I also catched Kyle XY, which was the second show that made up the 24 hours cumulative 'LCD screen' time XD

Bottomline, I really just wanted to experience what it was like to just enjoy some personal time. Not like the kind anyone might think of, but the kind that I hope to enjoy without the comfort of people close to me.

Most of my time was spent with people I care so much about in my life. I look back and everyone I ever cared about was with me for moments all over the place.

And with that comes regret, for not being able to make it for the ones they wanted me to be there for. I wished my appolagies were accepted although I cannot forget what my best friend once told me: you can never really forgive a person because you will always remember the moment (it sounds bitter, but I guess I have not found the way around this phrase).

I wanted to make it out on my own on this chapter of my life. Okay not as in without any support, but I want to not be so reliant on others. I noticed that X always went away to his computer whenever and whatever, and I figured that maybe that was a good starting point for me. He knew how to be by himself, and you know, be the 'man' (at least that is the stereotype for my species' gender).

I am such a whimp sometimes, always talking to others about my emotions and how I feel about stuffs. My petty complains, over-emphasis on relationships and all that very so-called 'uncle' stuff...made me a pretty different person from the usual crowd now yea?

Sometimes, I really do not know if it was good that I was the way I am. So much could have been different for everyone if I had been just a little different (like, less the emotions and all that...)

I do not know why I am allowing myself to rant on so far tonite. Well, it is time to cap the bottle and move on to lala-land now. I'll be fine! See you guys around in the morning!

Ah Jon