Hanging By The Edge

Music: Granado Espada - Rosa Rosado
Mood: Good
Random Note: Must Work Harder *sizzles the brain*

Ah, appolagies for no updates on last week! Apparently, I have been pretty much pinned down by school work. Like I know that is not really the best excuse, but I guess my choice over resting was kinda the reason why I was not online to post.

Am actually a little more relaxed today, so that's a good start (it's pouring outside!)

Many many things I have not updated about~ So let me start recalling there:

It has been a very rough week since my last update. Apparently all the topics in school are getting exponentially hard and I really do not know how I am going to cope. What made this more demoralising was that one of my test results was really bad, which led to a series of self-doubts (ongoing process).

I really wish I will be able to bring something good back home and make this certificate worth something to all their investments on me. I know it really sounds silly, having to fulfil 'invisible' expectations. Looking at it from my perspective, I want to get to the whole 'able to take care of everyone' status.

And it does help to know that X is also pacing up on his efforts =) Bottomline, it is good to have someone on the same side as of struggles. Last week we set to head down to school to do revision over the weekends. However~ XD It wasn't really prouctive because the venues were closed on both occasions and the weather is increasingly close lately.

Went down to the guitar shop over the weekends and X was kinda happy to finally lay his hands on one of those fiddley thingies. Of course now he is stuck with whether or not to spend on the instrument that he supposedly 'relaxes' on. Least I think I've done my part as far as I can at this moment in life.

Will be headed down to school again this weekend! And this time it must be awesome because I so do wanna get work done. I'll try to take more pictures within the school compound then.

Side note: Oh my goodness I need to survive winter! The weather has taken a real change for the colder, and it is difficult to concentrate with the brrrrrrrrgh cold temperature sometimes XD

I really hope things are going on fine between jx and her stuffs. Apparently there was this huge hiccup between her and a friend. Unfortunately, I am not @ home to help out the way I usually do, but I believe that she will be able to make it as time goes by. There are things that I have learned about her relationship, and I know that now is not the best time to really say certain things.

Let's just put it this way: I do not think my cousin (nor anyone really for the matter) deserves anything less than what is good in life. Sometimes there might be things that we want badly. And may there seem to be the perfect solution in front of us, but that might not really be the case, you know? Like maybe I shouldn't be too skeptical for my own good, but I seldom make any decisions without realising facts now...do I?

I miss everyone so badly...like over the week I got to saw all 3 of my cousin's + mh's faces! Was really so happy to see that everyone is healthy and doing well (by well I mean fighting the battles of life on a daily basis XD). Really really made my day~ I also got to see my aunt, whom apparently made me really really miss them. I cannot stress that I have the best relatives possible to my knowledge...they care for each other and that is all that really matters. I am glad to be who I am because of what they have taught me.

Then I got my sister and Jeremy telling me to take care of myself =) Which I definitely will, so do not worry about me guys...~

I have this big economics quiz coming up on friday so I shall not stay too long here. Till next time! Hope everyone is doing better than myself =)

Ah Jon